The pieces of me

Where did the time go?

2012-01-15T22:21:00.009-06:00

Wow, I can't believe I've been away this long as it sure doesn't feel that long. I guess being as busy as I have been with the new job and all the holidays, time just got away from me.So speaking of the new job, I am really growing fond of it. I can tell you it was really touch and go there for a while. About a month ago I was contacted by my previous job and asked to come back. I was just

Get together

2011-09-22T21:23:00.003-05:00

Good food ends with good talk....I was thinking about throwing a little get together, inviting some friends whom I haven't seen for a while, cooking some good food, mixing up some great drinks and top it off with lots and lots of good talk.Better start planning!

A Take on Today

2011-09-03T11:22:00.004-05:00

Outside My Window... rainy, dreary skies. Thunder ever so quietly rumbling in the background with the rain gently falling I am thinking... how much I miss my Levi and how I should get off this couch and go do something productive. I feel like cooking :) I am thankful for... all the goodness in my life, even through the clouds, and most of all my family! From the kitchen... I

GoD and DoG

2011-09-03T11:15:00.003-05:00

I miss my Levi terribly. Although I originally thought not, I believe it's now inevitable I will find another four-legged pal.

New Adventure

2011-07-25T21:52:00.005-05:00

Praise be to God I have a new job! My first day was today and although I am the least pedigreed of the pack I am hoping I can make up for that in chutzpah! I have accepted an Incident Manager Analyst position. This position will take incoming outage calls and I will be responsible to put all the parties that need to fix the issue on the phone for resolution. These calls will be global, which is

Suck it ;)

2011-06-25T17:50:00.010-05:00

I drove past a house today and they had a fan in front of their front screen door which was blowing out the door vs. drawing air inside. In an instant I was drawn back to when I was little girl and we lived in our story and 1/2 house where me and the girls had the entire upstairs floor as our bedroom. It used to get terribly hot upstairs in the summertime and there was only two windows up there.

Summertime

2011-06-20T22:14:00.006-05:00

So this is what it feels like to have summer vacations?! Amazing! I should have done this more often. In the 26 years that I've been working I could probably count on one hand the times I've had a summer vacation. I usually took my vacations over the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays so we could travel out of state to visit family. And in all honesty I haven't had a whole week or anything off

I'm doing OK....considering

2011-05-17T21:35:00.005-05:00

My family got together at my sister's in P-burg this last weekend for my nephew's 12th birthday. We learned the news that Reece has a girlfriend AND was going to a dance that night...wow, what the heck happened to our sporty "i hate all girls" boy...oh yeah, he's growing up.But I love having all the family together...makin fun of each other and laughin the day away. Love to watch the cousins all

2011-04-05T23:40:00.008-05:00

I want to write.....but everything I write about turns to shit.....so I don't writeHe went back to his wife

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2011-03-03T18:06:00.012-06:00

Ahhhhh a quiet moment....time to write....lots to catch up on!It has been a whirlwind month and it certainly ended with a bang! It started out not so pretty when I thought things were over between me and Idaho. I think I've explained in past posts so I won't go into that gory detail again but as fate would have it, things are not over and perhaps they were even better than before but no where

How Do I Find The Answers?

2011-02-02T17:07:00.006-06:00

I wish there was an off switch...they just keep coming and coming and coming. This month I will be 45 years young. One of my children is grown and living on her own, getting ready to make her stake in this world and the other is almost out of high school and also has tentative plans about what he wants to do, where he wants to go, etc. What does that leave me with? A very big empty house, a

Revalation Resolution

2011-02-01T20:29:00.008-06:00

I know the new year brings out plenty of new resolutions in people but I think for me this last week has been a week of revelations and has set forth my resolution for this year and every year going forward.I have always known, ok well maybe not always known but at least always used my words as weapons to inflict hurt when I've felt hurt has been inflicted upon me. For the most part I have always

Yes, I'm here!

2011-01-19T21:44:00.007-06:00

In 2 days it is gonna be my man's birthday...he'll be 45, OMG, he's the oldest man I've ever dated...lol I am so sad that I won't be able to spend it with him as we originally thought, at least in person but I hope to catch him on the "box" that night before he enjoys the night with his family who are all coming to see him to spend the his day with him...their last one :( Everybody is now well

Christmas Aftermath

2010-12-26T14:48:00.010-06:00

and I wouldn't be talking about the normal "craziness" of people returning gifts to the stores for refunds or exchanges because that is just madness but rather I'm talking about after all the festivities are done and everyone goes back to doin what they do...their lives. Everybody going their separate ways again.I think the thing I love most about the holidays, as I'm sure do most parents, is

Happy.....Coping

2010-12-13T18:46:00.006-06:00

It has been approximately 4 weeks and I find myself completely consumed by my new/old found love. It's as if we didn't miss a beat in 30 years. We have spent hours and hours and HOURS together talking via phone, texting but mostly via webcam. Thank god for that invention. If I can't be right next to him at this very moment, at least I can see his handsome face, terrific smile, the way he

Idaho

2010-11-21T13:52:00.017-06:00

I just don't even know where to start as my mind is racing a hundred miles an hour with excitement yet I'm trying so hard not to read too much into anything or set myself up for heartache and devastation again...but it feels so good to feel "good" about where the possibility of life is taking me right now.It's no secret how happy in love Shane and I used to be, all the plans and hopes we had made

It's Peeking Around the Corner!

2010-11-12T21:04:00.012-06:00

I can hear the knock, knock, knocking of winter's chilly little hands on my door and although I will gripe and whine about it, secretly inside I kind of like it. I like it cuz it tends to slow everything down, the kids stay home or come home more, we spend more quality time together, I relish evenings cuddled up on the couch watching a good movie or playing games, I enjoy staying in my warm bed

Turtle Burgers

2010-11-03T23:22:00.005-05:00

My Aunt sent me an email that had this recipe in it and I couldn't resist passing it along!Rachael ~ this is for you!!Handmade ground beef patties, topped with sharp cheddar cheese,wrapped in a bacon weave, then the next step, add hot dogs as the heads, legswith slits for toes and tail.Next step.Place on an oven rack, covered loosely with foil, and bake for 20-30 minutes at 400 degrees.A little

Weekends

2010-10-31T23:53:00.011-05:00

Man I love the weekends but they come and go so fast. I have gotten so much done around the house AND garage lately that I'm just so darn proud of even myself. I have managed to wheedle my Dad's stuff in the garage to about 6-7 boxes that all of us girls need to go through together and then about 10 boxes are ready to go to my sister's and I think I carried about 10 boxes into the basement of

Busy, Busy, Busy

2010-10-10T23:11:00.016-05:00

Where to begin.......things have been sooo crazy busy lately but most of you get to hear of my daily updates on FB, just not the full details.It seems I had a severe electronic failure in my house including crap ass Inet provider. A couple months ago I had my motherboard go out on my computer but had it replaced right away due to the service plan I bought. Well then I started having problems

Hi, Howdy, How are ya?

2010-09-15T23:19:00.003-05:00

Hi there! So how's things goin?Today things are goin pretty good for me, I'm pretty chipper considering all the crappy stuff goin on in my life as of late. Most of which you guys already know about....like the Shanester and I being over and done with cuz he gots him another fine ass lady (cough, cough) or is it really done?! Well he may be physically with another but I will always own his

UNRESOLVED

2010-07-30T10:28:00.002-05:00

I didn’t think that I was going to write about this but my heart weighs so heavy I think it will be good to just get it out…On July 20th I found out my Puffin was seeing someone else. It was by shear fuck up, on his part, that I found out but maybe he subconsciously wanted it to happen, who knows but either way it was devastating to me. What was to come after was even more devastating….he told

Chicken Cordon Bleu Pizza

2010-07-25T23:59:00.007-05:00

I had a good but exhausting weekend. Didn't have to work at the office this weekend so was able to complete a lot of stuff at home which makes me feel good cuz "home" has been very neglected with all the OT at work lately.I was able to get all my flowers planted this weekend...hey a little late than never is ok in my book. We also took all the furniture off the front porch and hosed/scrubbed it

Joy oh Joy, Where for art thou?!

2010-07-13T22:46:00.005-05:00

Several months ago I reconnected with a dear friend of mine who has had much tragedy in her life. She brought me up to speed with all that had been going on recently in her life including a new relationship she was in and was so excited about. The shocker about this relationship is that it is an LDR! He lives in Florida but is currently working in New Jersey.When we first started talking she

Vaca is over :(

2010-07-06T22:48:00.005-05:00

Tomorrow I go back to work after being off since 7/1. I had a wonderful time spending time with my son up at the lake and with my cousins but even moreso rejuvenating myself from work. I definitely needed the break and feel like I will be able to burn through the problems tomorrow, full speed ahead.We also have a new family member...our cute lil kitty Kiwi. She came from the Cedar Bend Humane

Checkin in

2010-06-21T00:11:00.007-05:00

It's been a hectic, crazy summer so far. I'm sad that although I write blogs in my head all the time, I rarely have a chance to sit down and right them online. Perhaps one day we can just plug into each other's head and hear them without us having to type/write them?Well let's see, shall we do a little catch up?Both the kids are obviously out of school and my baby boy turned 16...yeup, 16. In two

G to the adgets

2010-05-31T23:28:00.001-05:00

There are a couple new gadgets on my page...can you find 'em?Check 'em out and have fun! I'll be looking for more too!

Magazines are ME!

2010-05-31T22:38:00.002-05:00

I think I have come to the realization that I have a magazine fetish orrrrr in the very least I'm a magazine hoarder :)I recently did some renovations to my living room (I'm waiting til all the finishing touches are up to share with you all) and in doing so everything had to be moved out of the living room including my very large coffee table. My coffee table is open at the bottom so you can

Quickie

2010-05-25T22:45:00.002-05:00

It's been an exhausting couple of weeks at work...trying desperately to get caught up all in the midst of a team who isn't very cohesive at this point. I stayed pretty much plugged in to my tunes and not speaking to anyone...for both counts. I hate working under these circumstances but do love my job. I sure miss the old days, that regretfully do not look like they will ever be again.After my

Keepsakes

2010-05-13T23:36:00.002-05:00

I leave tomorrow morning to head to my Grandma's. My mom, Uncle & Grandma have spent the last 3 weeks at my Grandma's going through my grandparents accumulated life time things to determine what my Grandma will keep and what will be auctioned off.I have been having a hard time watching my grandmother seemingly wrap up my grandfather's life and her life within the last 2 months and move on so

The Right Thing

2010-05-11T23:48:00.002-05:00

Sometimes doing the right thing is most definitely not the easiest thing...especially when it comes to the feelings of your children.Over the years I/we have owned several animals and most all of them have been rescues of some sort or another. I feel that owning animals teaches children many valuable things not to mention the companionship and love they provide. They truly do become one of the

I'm Blue

2010-05-11T23:38:00.002-05:00

So I took this really interesting color personality test and was totally amazed at the outcome being sooooo dead on for me. The test poses questions based on how you would have acted in your childhood to different things and then spews it all out with a neat tidy bow on it. So here are my results...you tell me if they are dead on or not and then take the test yourself and let me know what you

Alive again!

2010-04-29T23:24:00.004-05:00

All my being down and depressed came to a fairly abrupt halt or hiatus this last weekend. I actually left my house and went out and about with my friends and had a wonderful time....imagine that!!Friday night Tina and I hit the movies and saw Death At A Funeral which was funny as hell. After the movie was over we headed over to Fanatics for a couple drinks and Tina ran into some girlfriends

Unlove Me?

2010-04-17T11:22:00.005-05:00

I've changed my playlist...it will play automatically.On 4/10/10 it was 3 years since we had met.I will miss these things:YouYour laughYour smileThey way you used to make me feel as if I was the most important person in the worldYour speedy talkYour lousy bluetoothsNever seeing 949 or 714 area codes on my caller IDYour loving textsNo more voicemails or emailsNo more wonderful text photosThe

Procrastinating

2010-04-12T23:09:00.004-05:00

Sooo I think I have procrastinated til I can procrastinate no more....it's 4/12 and I haven't done my taxes yet OR my daughter's. Most people don't even wait until they have their tax forms from work and they are filing. Hell some of them are down right pissed if they don't have their form on February 1st. Me, well about 4-5 years ago I got sooo tired of paying out my ass into the government and

Out with the old...in with the New

2010-04-11T23:40:00.005-05:00

Have you been to the new Homemakers in Des Moines? If you haven't, you need to go. I spent 3 hours there today and still didn't see half of the store.I'm on the hunt for some new furniture because my ass is getting a little wider, so I need a couch/love seat that's built for it...lolWhat do you think?The gray one (last photo) and the tan colored one right above it are my favs. I'm just not sure

Hoppy Easter

2010-04-03T18:37:00.005-05:00

There are a couple of the blogs that I am following that are an absolute hoot...both written by very empowering women with great senses of humor, witty as hell but speak about daily life happenings. So if you get a chance check out Wonderful World of Wieners and From The Inside Out. Let me know if you enjoy them as much as I do!Austin has been spending more and more time with Courtney his new

Cough, Cough, Hack, Hack

2010-03-21T21:35:00.004-05:00

Kickin back on a Sunday evening watchin Celebrity Apprentice and thinking tomorrow it's back to work again and I have to say I'm feeling a little more up to work this week. I still have a hacking cough but less of it today than yesterday but what I have really despised about this nasty lil bug I've caught was this tight feeling and wheezing in my chest. Some have said this probably bronchitis...

Germs

2010-03-15T11:26:00.002-05:00

Well if things could get any worse I don't even know how cuz somehow I contracted some nasty dreaded germ that has made me sicker than hell for the last 3 days. Now I don't wanna lay any blame here but I only contracted this germ after I went back to work...hmmmmIt started out with a sore throat, runny nose on late Friday, early Saturday morning and by Sunday morning it was full on body aches and

The Service

2010-03-09T22:30:00.006-06:00

It was a glorious day, as glorious as it could be to lay my Bumpa to rest. But the day was truly beautiful, the sun was shining, the weather was gorgeous so I believe that God chose to recognize the wonderful life of Bumpa by a beautiful day.Everyone met at Grandma's that morning and we headed over to the church at 12:00 pm. There was a brief visitation before the service. Grandpa looked so at

Life is short...

2010-03-03T13:16:00.006-06:00

Back at the hospital on Friday was pretty much a similar day...he was fairly incoherent most of the day. Late afternoon and early evening he began to struggle with his breathing to the point where he was wheezing. They were concerned about him having aspirated some of the food he had tried to eat the following day and was unable. They brought a respiratory therapist up who gave him a breathing

Need You Now

2010-02-25T23:59:00.002-06:00

You only have 1 life and you only get 1 chance... Lady Antebellum More CMT Music More CMT Music Videos

Life at it's worst

2010-02-25T23:00:00.005-06:00

I set out this morning on my 4 hour trek to see my Bumpa and how he was doing. I dreaded the trip for more than just the drive this time...I didn't know what I would find when I arrived but was planning for the worse and hoping for the best. As I arrived at the hospital Michelle called and said her and Grandma wanted something to eat. So we drove over to Jimmy Johns and picked up some

You left me...

2010-02-23T07:47:00.000-06:00

Shane: For what its worth im sorry i wasnt there for you..i was sad the whole time watching the superbowl. I hope someday u will forgive me for always letting u down.Me: I can forgive but can you promise that won't happen again? If you have to provide an explanation rather than a yes or no, please don't respond. I need someone who can be there for me, who is willing to make me a priority. Is

Bumpa

2010-02-22T22:33:00.010-06:00

When I was a little girl I couldn't say Grandpa, it always came out Bumpa instead...hence my Grandpa's true name from me was adopted..."Bumpa". He, himself, even had a special nick name for me and very rarely ever called me by my first name, only when he was upset, but rather he called me "Babe". I can hear him in the back of my mind now, "Hi Babe", "Glad you came up to see us Babe". I hear

Farmville

2010-02-07T20:33:00.003-06:00

Being a pretty frequent, ok maybe obsessive, user of Facebook I was bound and determined not to become involved in any of the games. I just wanted to use it as a method of keeping in touch with family & friends and reconnecting with the same.Well it all started with Farkle, that cute lil dice game that had me pulling my hair out on days. I mean c'mon did I seriously think it was like a real

Stifle It

2010-02-07T20:26:00.003-06:00

For those of you who blog as a matter of journaling, have you ever found that you stifled your true thoughts, bit your tongue and not said some of the things you really wanted to say for fear of retribution or harming others feelings?I have felt this way, not often, but often enough that I have thought about starting a hidden or secret blog so I can rant/rave/cry/whine/exclaim about anything and

Texas

2010-02-07T19:37:00.004-06:00

Well as some of you or perhaps all of you already know I recently traveled to Texas on business to train our counterparts for taking over our positions. This was a wonderful opportunity for two reasons; I was able to meet the people and visit the company headquarters that I have been working for for 6 years and I was also able to see the south where I have never been. I have been talking in

Did ya miss me?

2010-01-17T23:04:00.005-06:00

I know I missed you!Time to do a little catch up, huh?!We are in full swing of basketball season at my house...thank goodness there's only 1 child left so I am not having to split my time between two kids in two different locations. Aus LOOOVES basketball, it's the sport he lives for the most. Unfortunately Union has a terrible JV coach who rarely plays anybody but his 5 starters. It breaks my

Twas 4 days before Christmas...

2009-12-20T23:13:00.004-06:00

Sittin back this evenin watchin a little Down Home With The Neely's while they are fixing some Cornish game hens, lobster mac & cheese & strawberry pie. That lobster mac & cheese sounds rather interesting!Aus and I spent this weekend baking up a storm. We made Santa's White Chocolate Chex Mix, Peanut Blossoms and Ranch Oyster Crackers. It might not seem like a whole lot but if you only knew

Girl problems

2009-12-10T22:35:00.003-06:00

Well my lil stud of the house has turned out to be quite the ladies man. But he is very selective....sooo selective he recently decided that his best friend's girl was to be "the one". Let me fill you in...Aus's best friend is Kole. Aus is quiet, timid and certainly not aggressive, especially when it comes to chicks...he likes to play it low key. Kole on the other hand is a thrill seeker,

Who Would Have Thunk It

2009-11-18T20:46:00.003-06:00

As I walked out of the office the other night at 5:00 pm, arriving at 7:00 am that morning, I thought to myself is this what a career woman is considered? If it is I never thought it would be me. I remember starting my "career" 25 years ago at GMAC in the mail room as a part timer. Tim was working for Bertch full time and we wanted to start a family and wanted the possibility for me to be able

The Steel Blade

2009-11-05T21:53:00.006-06:00

Dear Blogger,Why is it that I find that I turn to you most often when my life is a mess? You never offer comforting words but maybe that's the point...you don't speak, which means you don't speak back. HAYou're just really good at listening and you are ALWAYS there when I need you to do just that. But perhaps we could get you some add on extra features, like a crystal ball or Kleenex...stuff

Trip 1

2009-10-25T15:08:00.007-05:00

Well it's been 3 weeks now since the wedding and I had an absolutely wonderful time despite the very chilly weather. This is my Dad's side of the family which I usually interact and see much more often than my mom's as they are all in one general vicinity up home vs. spread over several states.They are definitely a jolly, fun, DRINKIN bunch of fools...lol...but I do love them so. Ariel brought

Dear Blogger:

2009-10-20T23:18:00.002-05:00

My intentions are good, I swear they are...I even put you on my "to do" list, yet here it is 11:20 pm and amongst other things, my first love Facebook has taken away your one and only shot for tonight.I could apologize again but I know you've heard that time and time again but I swear I have lots and lots of stories to tell as well as many photos to share. Will you give me another chance?*Sigh*

tumultuous thursday

2009-10-15T07:38:00.002-05:00

It’s going to be a grand day today….For the life of me I cannot seem to beat that damn handicap bus, which picks up the little girl across the street from me, every day. The bus parks right behind my driveway in the middle of the road so there is no way to sneak out and even if I tried, I’m sure I would be ticketed with passing a school bus or something of the sort. So there I sit at the end of

rAnDoM

2009-10-04T23:29:00.003-05:00

It was a completely uneventful weekend for me but what's new. I did go out on Friday night to a friend's house who had a BBQ get together and had a great time. There was lots of chatting, good food and drinking of course. It was nice to spend some time with work people outside of work and get to know the "non-work" them. I even met a bunch of their families which was really nice as well.

Charm

2009-10-04T22:45:00.002-05:00

It's intangible, ineffable, impossible to pin down but do you possess it?? Here are the 5 universal traits that charming people exhibit:1. A Sense of Humor ~ Funny people attract others effortlessly. They are always usually the person at the party with the largest circle of admirers. Humor has always been well known to reduce stress and promote social bonding.2. Insight & Passion ~ Charming

I wanna see it

2009-09-28T22:25:00.001-05:00

I've implemented a new setting for comments on my blog page...now you should be able to see the form and comment right underneath the actual post.So give it a try and let's see if it works!!

Autumn in the Air

2009-09-27T23:47:00.002-05:00

Did you feel the autumn nip in the air today? I did...and felt that fall nesting/cleaning mode kicking in. Aus and I took down the screen from the sliding glass door and scrubbed it down, screen and all, and cleaned the glass on the sliding door. We also took all the glass lamp shades that hang in the kitchen down and cleaned them in the sink and put them back up. I also did some laundry and

Sa La Vie

2009-09-20T22:45:00.006-05:00

It's been a bumpy, roller coaster ride the last couple of weeks...but when isn't it...that's the story of my life! So let me tell ya about it....Well as you can tell Shane and I are in turmoil, unfortunately, and of course according to him it is all my fault. I'm accusatory, negative, put him on the defensive...the list goes on and on. I am not saying that I don't fall into those categories on

I Think I Finally Got The Message

2009-09-13T23:35:00.002-05:00

I think I finally got the message....you can't just say "I love you" and then not back it up with your actions. When you love someone if makes you feel wonderful inside when you can make them happy and feel loved and wanted. And if you know how that can be accomplished by them telling you what it takes and you don't/won't do it....I think I finally got the message.If I meant the world to him as

Only You Can Love Me This Way

2009-08-27T23:24:00.002-05:00

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My Tivo Season Pass List

2009-08-27T23:08:00.002-05:00

See any of your favorites? Watching any of these?1. So You Think You Can Dance2. Friday Night Lights3. Grey's Anatomy4. American Idol5. Project Runway6. Top Design7. John Edward Cross Country8. The Locator9. Top Chef10. Can You Duet11. Intervention12. The Real World13. Chopped14. Principal's Office15. Ultimate Recipe Showdown16. The Millionaire Matchmaker17. Make Me A Supermodel18. Making the

New Chapters

2009-08-27T22:41:00.003-05:00

It's been a tumultuous week this week. My baby girl headed off for her first full week of college and it started off with a bang but not a good one. Her boyfriend, of about 4-5 months, broke up with her. His reason was because he needed to get himself together for college and grow up as I believe he put it and he didn't want to hurt her. He also thought it would be rough because they are so

Cars for Clunkers My Butt

2009-08-24T22:36:00.005-05:00

So I had been mulling over the idea of buying a new car with the Cars for Clunkers program. I will probably never find another opportunity to get $4500 for my Blazer and come to find out being a First American employee I get discounts from ALL the major car manufacturers.So I know I waited til late in the program to get started but it was through 8/24/09 so there was plenty of time yet...or so I

Does Anybody Know What It's Like...

2009-08-09T21:46:00.005-05:00

You are the world within the world that I existYou are the touch that just won't fadeYou are the end and beginning of each and every dayYou are the reason I stay saneIt's hard to see beautifulOh, it's hard to see beautifulIn your own eyesBut you make me beautifulFor the very first timeDoes anybody know what it's likeTo feel larger than lifeTo look deep in your soulAnd know you're not aloneDoes

Packing...

2009-08-09T21:13:00.004-05:00

It was time to pack my baby girl's things for her to head off into the world. I knew this day would be coming and absolutely dreaded it...she knew it too, so didn't press too hard. Originally it was to pack the things she wanted to take down the college and somehow as we ran across all her wee little girl things we began to laugh and snicker and try things on...We found an Ariel button that you

UnAcCePtAbLe!

2009-08-03T23:29:00.004-05:00

It seems I live in a world of complete imbeciles....imbeciles who go out and purchase these items called cell phones and then leave them in a perpetual state of "silent mode".Now don't get me wrong there is definitely a place and time for "silent mode", hence why they created it for the device. However there are numerous modes, one of them where the ringer can actually be allowed to ring....what

Plinky Question

2009-08-02T01:26:00.002-05:00

So Plinky is this service that I signed up for through Blogger which sends me out periodic emails with questions in them to spark you to write something in your blog. This week's question is "What one of your 5 senses would you want to live without for a year and why". Here goes...It would definitely have to be taste. Well, what more is there to say...lol By reason of deduction, it would have

Thoughts

2009-08-01T22:42:00.002-05:00

More and more lately I have been thinking about the whole moving thing. Ari is out of the house in another week and Austin is never here anymore as he's always with his friends....life is sooo lonely in this big old house by myself.I wish I had more friends who were more than just work friends or whom didn't have significant others. Friends that I could go out and do things with but it just

One-Sided?

2009-07-21T23:03:00.003-05:00

So the love affair is on again....or is it? I know it's never stopped on my side but it seems to be very sporadic on his end. Well let me rephrase that...when we speak on the phone he absolutely has no problem telling me how much he loves me and it's heartfelt. But there are no loving emails anymore, no loving messages left on my blog, no messages on facebook, not lots & lots of texts telling

The First Thing That Comes Into Your Mind...

2009-07-12T22:40:00.002-05:00

Relationships: Why do they have to be so hard? They should love you the way you love them! Your Last Ex: I'm sorry Power: Good & Evil Food: I eat all the wrong things :( Drugs: For medicinal purposes only The President: Should be supported no matter whether you voted for them or not. War: Only to protect ourselves Cars: I like 'em fast & sporty! Gas Prices:

If You Leave...

2009-07-12T21:13:00.009-05:00

I'll be "Lost Without Your Love"....start the song....then continue readingLost Without Your Love – Bread Music CodeWhy is it that men and women feel things so differently? Men feel things much more surfacely (I'm sure that's not a word but I know you'll know what it means) and women so much more emotionally deep.I don't love just a little on the top...I love with all I am. Therefore I don't

Taco Tuesday

2009-07-08T00:11:00.003-05:00

The infamous Taco Tuesday is known at more places than just Taco John's. Yes even our own cafeteria has 'Taco Tuesday'. Now our Taco Tuesday gives us a wide array of Mexican cuisine...nachos, walking tacos, taco pizza, etc. Nachos is always my bag on Taco Tuesday and all the fixins are there to add to them, including the melted cheese sauce. But this sauce is special...special because it has

Foolish

2009-07-08T00:07:00.000-05:00

Shane....sound familiar?

The Last Game

2009-07-07T23:04:00.002-05:00

Yesterday was pretty much like any other normal summer day...got off work, headed home, checked my networking sites and then get ready to head to Ari's game. Only today shortly before she left to head down to her game she said to me, "Mom, I think it's time we start going through and packing my room"....it was allllll downhill from that point. Of course I responded with my resounding "NO!"

Clean Up

2009-06-27T22:44:00.006-05:00

Today was a mixed bag of tricks...we started off with a ball tourny for Ari in Independence which started at 9 am this morning and lasted til 4:30....whew. We lost all 3 games they played today but most of them by a narrow margin. Best of all, I got to walk away with a great lookin farmer's tan :)Back home again around 5'ish for a night of just piddling around. I figured I'd take some time and

Tragedy

2009-06-27T18:28:00.004-05:00

It was a normal Tuesday morning and I was at work plugging away when I get a call fairly early in the morning from my sister Teresa who said "did you hear the news?" and I could tell she had been crying. So I anxiously said no I hadn't and waited for her to tell more. She then proceeded to tell me that the AP Coach Ed Thomas had been shot and killed in the weight room this morning at the high

In Search Of....

2009-06-25T23:53:00.000-05:00

A guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly

Mama Movin On Up?

2009-06-19T07:56:00.002-05:00

So there is a possible opportunity to move up within my team as recently my team lead has taken a position outside of the company and will be leaving us. I will be sad to see her go as she had a very sarcastic, quick-witted sense of humor about her that I absolutely identify with and love. She was also one of those team leads who didn’t micro-manage. She never stood over my desk and asked if this

Security Blanket

2009-06-09T11:55:00.012-05:00

I am so tired of writing about this subject yet it is still all consuming of me at this point. I have such mixed emotions about most things relating to Shane and I but not to how much I love him, in spite of all that has happened. Guess that's the beauty of love...forgiveness.Some think that I have and continue to be strictly played by him. They believe that he is a parasite that feeds off needy

"How Could You"

2009-06-06T11:52:00.002-05:00

To Hell and Back

2009-06-03T20:39:00.003-05:00

Man I gotta tell ya these last 4 weeks have been nothing short of pure hell but I am cautiously optomistic that they will be righting themself very soon. It is still going to take a lot of work but I have faith that both he and I are willing to put in the time and effort.Right now I'm truly missing the way we were and I can't deny that it's a real downer. Thank goodness for our conversations

Hey Stupid...He's With Me

2009-05-30T09:04:00.001-05:00

I don't get why some people don't get the hint, don't understand or just continue to live in complete denial...and I'm not talking about myself.

I Miss Him

2009-05-27T06:39:00.004-05:00